Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Living from God's Heart.
I seem to have been making some kind of shift from living in and from my head to beginning, just barely living from my heart. I don't know what this means yet...... I don't know how or why this is happening either.... Maybe it is a natural process that can happen in a man approaching his 50's. I'll be 50 this December. I don't feel 50 whatever that is supposed to feel like but it seems to be happening.
Over the last 6 years since starting ThetaHealing I have been working on myself and clearing issues and limiting beliefs like a Mad Man. I've survived a divorce successfully. My ex and I are on very friendly terms thank God. I've been travelling and teaching, sometime to classes of only 2 people. I've made lots of what the world would classify as mistakes. I've not always treated other people or myself with the respect they deserved, and I've continued to clear my issues and look as deeply at what causes me and others pain and released it. I don't know where all this is leading to.
for now I seem to have come to a place of wanting consciously to trust the mystery and stay open to life a bit more... opening my heart from time to time. Before this if someone told me to open my heart it felt as if they were speaking another language. They probably were. I had no clue what they meant. I still struggle with that..... but I seem to be beginning to do it instinctively as I get a bit older.
With the help of one of my friends i've learned a way to consciously Bridge my negative emotions from self pity or depression or that feeling of being a victim to one of openess and empowerment. Empowerment not in a self disciplined way but in a way that I am beginning to choose to identify that love in my heart as real and sort of who i really am.... When I access that feeling and move into it and allow it to be what i choose to put my attention on then the rest of the world begins to reflect that back to me and no matter where i look or what seems to be going on around me. Only love and bliss is reflected back..... I LOVE those moments....
If you'd like Creator's understanding of whatever I said in this Blog.....and how and what it feels like to do the stuff I have been experiencing but to do it in your way say yes now out loud.......